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Avadhesh,
after his three fail attempts in Medical Entrance exam took admission in
Zoology (H) at Hansraj College. Last three years were most painful years of his
life. All he did was studying but his hard work was going in vain. But he
was happy finally he got the admission. No more coaching, No more mugging of
Physics theories, chemistry formulas and biology terms, No more test series, No
more rushes to fill exam forms and applying to Medical colleges. He can start
his College life now. Somewhere deep inside his heart he was even happier and
the reason for this happiness was his childhood crush is also taking admission
in Hansraj College.
His
childhood crush, Ritika, she was like the dawn, fair like the open sky, soft
like rose petals and her voice soothes hearts. This made Ritika the most wanted
girl of school. She too was preparing for Medical entrances at Varanasi. Though
Avadhesh and Ritika were classmates but they hardly spoke with each other.
Ritika was in top ten at coaching while Avadhesh was in last ten. Ritika had
qualified in Medical entrances in her last two attempts but she opted out
because she wanted AIIMS, at least she said so.
After orientation Avadhesh talked to Ritika for the first time in his life. He had talked to her in school but mostly he asked for notes or her marks that is it. Unlike his expectation Ritika was frank and welcoming. After normal Hi-Hello she gave her number to Avadhesh. This was the best day for him.
Classes
began and on first day Avadhesh was sitting with a girl for the first time and
that too with the girl whom he liked from his KGs. He was anxious but after
seeing Ritika calm and smiling he too got the confidence and finally got some
relief when teacher entered in the class. They became good friends after few weeks.
Meanwhile
Avadhesh likeness for Ritika was turning into love. Once he asked Ritika
whether she is single or committed. She replied "I am not committed but I have a huge crush on a guy and I like him a lot. My heart is LOCKED just for
him and I wanna spend all my life with him." She didn’t reply when he asked
“Who?” . When Avadhesh insisted and asked “Whether he is from our college?” She just
nodded in yes and left the library. But still their friendship continued.
Sitting
on LP and talking for hours was their
favorite past time. Whatever time they were left with they were together. Night
was the only time when they were separated . One day Avadhesh asked her for
movie after classes and she said “Why after the class ? lets bunk and
go !“ . The movie was a romantic one. Though Avadhesh was getting bored but
Ritika was the reason for his excitement. She was looking at her and she was just smiling. Then slowly she hold his hand and pressed it a
little. That was too much for him. He got the signal and without thinking he
just kissed her on her lips … initially she was shaking and then after a moment she too started
responding. Both were keeping their eyes closed. This was probably their
first kiss. When they opened their eyes it was interval time and lights
were. Damn ! people were smiling and looking at them. They were embarrassed and
because of their embarrassment they left the hall. They took different autos
and left for the hostel. For weeks they didn’t made eye contact. Both were
confused , though they were still sitting together but things have changed now.
They never talked about the kiss and never watched any movie after that
incident.
Their
three year preparation for medical entrances was helping them a lot in their
academics. In first year Avadhesh got first Rank in the University, Ritika got the
second rank. In second year both got the first rank. In third year again
“Entrance exams” have ruined their results but still they managed to secure their ranks
in College. Wonderful performance in University exams easily fetched
seats in MSc program for them.
Whole
Zoology Dept. of University treated them like couples. They never objected or
appreciated this. When Avadhesh friends inquired about how intimate their
relationship is Avadhesh simply said they are not in a relationship these are
just rumors, they are just FRIENDS. No one believed him. His friends thought he
is too shy to accept his relationship in front of them.
As
expected they did well in MSc too. Qualifying NET was proved to be cake walk
for this duo. They applied for ad-hoc jobs in University and got offer from
KMC. They accepted. Life was going cool. Meanwhile Avadhesh used to ask her
about his crush. Most of the times she tried to ignore his questions or just
changed the topic smartly. One day they were sitting in canteen and he
asked her “where is your Mr. Perfect “. She said “He is also got a job in a
college”. Avadhesh was stunned after listening this. He asked like a child “Is
he too smart and dashing?” She replied “Yes, he has killing looks; I know seven
girls from our college were ready to die for him”. Though Avadhesh was
also very good looking and he have got few proposals as well but these seven girls were
ready to die for him made him insecure. He just said “Hmmm”.Then she said
“Let’s go for shopping”. Someone has told him girls love shopping and
paying their shopping bills is the key that can open their locked heart.
Without losing a second he said “lets go”.
While
doing shopping Ritika was buying more for Avadhesh . He was confused after
seeing this but he just thought understanding a women is next to impossible and
decided to work on th mahamantra “ Ignorance is bliss” .
Years
passed and now Avadhesh’s parents started asking about his marriage plans. Avadhesh
simply said NO, he wanna focus more on his career. As a usual he was confused
with Ritika plans. When he inquired she said the guy whom she loves not wanna
marry now he is focusing more on his career.
Year passed Avadhesh inquired about Ritika ‘s boyfriend or crush whatever he was and he always got confusing answer. One day while he was coming to his room he met with a deadly accident. Seven of his ribs were broken and he was lying in ICU in AIIMS. Surely this was the last moment of his life . Doctors after looking in his phone called Ritika . She left everything and she was there. When she met the doctors they said “ He is just having few minutes. Though his operation was successful but his lungs have literally ‘brust’ due to extreme outside pressure that was created at the time of accident and his blood pressure is also fluctuating drastically. We did whatever we could. He was keep saying your name so we called you. “ She went inside the ICU and after seeing him a tear rolled up and fallen on her cheek. His eyes were open but he can’t move . This was the first time Avadhesh saw her crying. He was cursing himself for making her cry.
Avadhesh knew this is going to be the end , end of his life and his love life too. Lots of thing were going on his mind. All he wanted was few more moment with her. Meanwhile she had called his parents and they are coming to Delhi with next flight. She was sitting beside him holding his hands in her hands and pressing it like she did when they went to watch their first movie . Avadhesh still in his senses felt the touch and a sweet smile was on his face.
And
then there was a sound in the room. It was the cardiograph. When she looked at
it she rushed to call the doctor but before she could stand he hold her hand
and said “Please don’t go , I don’t have much time.” His blood pressure was
going down He wished he could say something , when he opened his mouth all he
managed to say was “Who is the owner of the key that can open your LOCKED
heart? If you loved him why didn’t you got married & why he was too
shy to meet me ?”. Before she could say anything the cardiograph was
silent , there was a dead silence in the room as his death has arrived. She
walked away from there and this time she was not crying. She was silent like
that cardiograph.
She called her parents as well and asked them to come to Delhi. Then drove towards Rohini . Everything was too slow today. She stopped at the chemist shop and bought a bottle of sleeping pills. She thought she need some rest. When she reached her home instead of going to her bedroom she went towards her desk. Her best friend have asked a Question and she owe him an answer. She had decided everything while she was driving. She wrote a letter that said :
Dear Avadhesh .,
You always complained that I avoid giving you answers. You never gave me any opportunity so that I can ever complain about anything. You always took care of mine and you own a very special place in my heart and my life as well. I just have one complain ,today you left me alone at least you could have asked for my company. See I am trying to mock you and as a usual I failed again.
Life is too fast , see the first time we met in the school. I was 9 years old .Now I am 39 when you are not in this world. These 30 years were very long wait . You must be thinking what I was waiting for. I have got whatever I have desired. I wanna tell you these 30 years were worth living and you are the BEST reason for it.
I am working on your complain today. I will answer all your questions today. But before I start answering today I wanna tell you that I liked you from that first day I have seen you .You know I wanted to study Maths in plus two only you were the reason of mine to opt for Biology. I studied so that I can join the college which you will join. I even declined to take admission twice because I was waiting for you to decide what you are planning to do. When our common friends informed me about you are going to DU I have also decided to go there. I was getting St Stephens but you were the only reason to join Hansraj.
Whenever you asked about my relationship I never lied I told you the truth. Today when you asked “Who is the owner of the key that can open my LOCKED heart”. My heart bled after listening to this question. My love ! No one else could ever be admitted here, since this heart was made only for you. I am now going to shut it. I have consumed 60 sleeping pills. Now I will sleep and dream about you. I am happy at least unlike other days this dream of yours will last forever …
Only Yours
Ritika
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